From the last time I accessed BPN , my life has slowly beagan to spiral out of control. I cant seem to find purpose in anything, i keep ending up with the short end of the stick in relationships, and I just cant seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I had hoped that by this time in my life, i would be much further along, but to my amazement, I am far from where i believe i need to be. In my hearts of hearts, I truly belive that i have tried everything in my power to change my life for the better. But since the doors of the church in which i called home have closed, I cant seem to figure out which way to go. It even feels like sometimes that I have lost my connection to GOD, and although I know that to be false, sometimes I sit back and wonder if he really hears me, if he sees my pain, and if he even cares at all. And of course I know the answer to all of these questions, but sometimes, those thoughts enter my head. I am really lost right now and would love to hear some of your thoughts on this matter of my heart. Please feel free to leave your comments for myself and others who may be going through something similar, or you can always message me personally. All responses are greratly appreciated.
Your Brother In Christ,