LET USE SPEAK OUT APOSTLES/ PROPHETESS/ TEACHERS/ PASTORS/ EVANGELIST

[evangelist pastor susie houston]

LET PUT A STOP ABOUT THE DRUGS HURTING OUR TEENAGE AND ABOUT ABUSE CHILDRENS  .IF WE DO NOT DO IT WHO WILL   MY GOD MY GO MY GOD.......IT IS UP TO USE BE CAUSE  WE ARE CALLED BY GOD TO DO OUR FATHER WILL SO LET DO IT IN OUR COMMUNITY ....CHURCHES ...AND SCHOOLS.....SO LET OUR VOICE BE HEAR OUT LOUD TO STOP WHAT IS GOING ON AROUND US AND MAKE THIS WORLD ABETTER PLACE TO LIVE IN FOR OUR LOVE ONE THANK YOU EVANGELIST PASTOR SUSIE HOUSTON

[Teryl Lewis]

That's a good idea. My church runs a ministry called healing hearts. I grew up in a christian home. I always had to be in church. Since I am a survivor of parental/maternal child abuse and rape it was recommended that I join the ministry. My story is so profound that I still suffer today and the continual incidences that had occurred from birth to 48 years old still have a strong effect on my life. At 48 years old I suffered a major 'nervous breakdown' so I isolated myself and stayed in the house for two years. During the breakdown my bodily functions could not be controlled, was hospitalized with severe chest pains a few times, had to spend time in crisis centers a few times. I also lost my job so it became most comfortable to stay home all alone and not face the outside world. What was birthed in my during my 2 years of isolation was creativity. I re-designed my home, re-designed my yard, made my first cornice for my kitchen window. Those things are absolutely beautiful but with the newly found talent God gave me I am still suffering. I am finally back at church but it's hard to get involved in any ministries as I get overwhelmed by being around others and start to have panic attacks. I do not take any medication for this and am totally relying on the Lord to teach me how to overcome. My mother, grandmother and aunt abused me continually. I was beaten everyday of the week and only slapped in the face on Sundays for singing at the dinner table and everyday was told I am nothing and that I should be more like my cousin. Literally, truly, everyday! The abusers were also my sole caretakers for shelter, food, clothing. They showered me with everything I wanted expensive or not, monetarily and materially so it appeared to others that I was well taken care of. To the outside world I was spoiled. I got sugar and doo doo at the same time I was being beaten and bashed everyday up to 48 years of my life. My mother passed away when i was 27 but my grandmother and my aunt kept it going until my aunt passed away two years ago. My grandmother is now 106 years old and she now "loves me to death"...i think because there's no one here to lead her into giving the abuse anymore. I would get beatings and the next hour be at the mall or in the city shopping or at the hairdresser getting dolled up. Always sharp as at tack, even in my play clothes. At this time in my life all I know is the lifestyle of abuse
My questions about child abuse may possibly be different from any that you've had to answer as they strictly pertain to my personal life and I can't find the answers:
1. If a person is raised by an abuser from birth, and all they've ever known their entire life is abuse, how can that person differentiate/rework/recover or learn to live in a different world of love and security?
2. How can a person be an achiever or successful person when they are not able to participate with others in social settings for long spans of time like serving in ministries or singing on a choir?
3. If you have friends and make new friends how can you ever know what love is when you all of sudden become scared of them?

I agree that this child abuse and violence must be stopped. Here is my story...it may give some insight on the mind of the people who are causing this type of violence in our society today. It starts at the root and for me the root was being born.
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