A MOTHER CRY

[Chinua]

Hie everyone. I believe the lord is leading to disconnect from my oldest daughter. My heart is hurting so bad. She has woke up one morning last year and I really don't know who she is anymore. All the values that she has been taught she don't live by them any more. I have had to have her removed from my home last year for a whole year. She came back and said she was sorry. I let her back home after the frist month she was back to her old trick. I don't know what she will and won't do anymore. I am a loving mother and I don't want to leave her out there however; I can't play games with my other children life. I am just wondering have anyone every felt this way. I have been praying and I believe in my spirit that the lord is saying let go let God. I just don't want any of my self to be in this because I really tired.

[Chinua]

Thanks so much; for letting the lord use you. this is a trying time for me and I know we make decision everyday and sometime its of God and sometime its and excape for us. I just want to say that the lord did lay the prodigal son on my heart and I am telling you I am so tired I was like OK God. However that seem to easy for me; in that same breath she is my child. I would walk to the end of the earth if I could for any of my children. I know what I went through out there in them streets and I don't want that for her. I don't even think she can handle it; however I know the lord will watch over her. Thanks again Be Blessed.my sister.

[Bond 2 B Blessed]

I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY A CHILD WILL BE DISOBIDENT TO THEIR PAARENT OR PARENTS. BUT I CAN REMEMBER WHEN I WAS DISOBIDENT TO MY MOM AND ENEDE UP MAKING SOME WRONG CHOICES LIKE GETTING PREGNANT AT THE AGE OF 17. I HAVE TWO DAUGHTERS OF MY OWN WHO I AM RAISING ON MY OWN. IT IS A TOUGH JOB AT TIMES BUT ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH CHRIST WHICH STRENTHENS ME.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT EXACTLLY WHAT TO TELL YOU. BUT I DO KNOW THAT I WILL KEEP YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN PRAYER. LIFE IS A TEACHER THAT SOMETIMES WE DON'T PAY ENOUGH ATTENTION TO UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE SOME TIMES. BUT I KNOW THAT GOD HAS GOD HIS HANDS ON YOUR DAUGHTER. I CAN IMAGINE HOW YOU FEEL BECAUSE I WOULD PROBABLY BE FEELING THE SAME WAY IF I WERE IN YOUR SHOES.

SOME GOOD ADVICE IS TO JUST LOVE HER AND PRAY FOR HER. REMEMBER THAT GOD NEVER GIVES US MORE THAN WE CAN BARE. IF HE ALLOWED IT THAT MUST MEANS YOU WERE DESIGNED TO GO THROUGH IT. OUR GOD IS A GOOD AND AWSOME GOD. HE PROMISES NEVER TO LEAVE US OR FORSAKE US. HE WILL KEEP US ALL WELL PROTECTED. HE SAID THAT HE CARES ABOUT THOSE THINGS THAT ARE ON OUR MINDS AND IN OUR HEARTS.

I WILL DO MY BEST TO KEEP YOU IN ECOURAGED AND UP LIFTED. I LOVE U SIS AND WANT NOTHING BUT THE BEST FOR YOU.

[Chinua]

Thanks so much for the words of encouragement. I tell you in this struggle it means something. Be Blessed in Jesus name.

[Dr. Sharlene Jones, ThD.]

May the peace of God comfort your heart. Yes, I relate to your situation, "thought of disconnecting" from my son I could not, I had become "battle weary" the warfare was so intense and I was burning out, but one day God told me get on your knees, again. Well, I practically was living on my knees at one point, but this time it was different, I had come to "wit's end", God rekindled my passion for prayer and communion with Him, became sweeter and deeper. Today, my sone is still here, the "battles are not over", but not as intense. Yes, it's painful to see a child go total opposite to the way you have raised them, but the truth of the matter, they can not depart the truth will be with them. There were times I just did not no, this child, he "hated" me and was open about it, but I continue to love him, and it express it to him often. The more love I showed the more he acted it out, I knew I was in warfare with my own son, but this was not "flesh and blood". Contine to love her, and I know you will...keep trusting God. Your faith is on trail, you will begin to sense the storm passing over, the power of your love and prayers is deeper and strong then the power of the enemy over her life. Love conquers and heals...You are loved my sister, keep standing...don't give in...Stand still, continue to seek godly counsel and much prayer and supplication. Hold On...The wind of change will begin to blow. You will see VICTORY in the NAME OF JESUS. Dr. S. Jones, Pastor

[Chinua]

thanks so much because this is were I am right now. I have to be reminded of who exactly I am in the war with.. Your right about that love thing; because on a daily basic I have to keep speaking; I Love her she is my daughter and you WILL NOT SEPARATED US; AND SHE SHALL LIVE AND NOT DIED. So once again Thanks I am happy to know that the storm will pass over. Be Blessed.

[Chinua]

Thanks for the encouragement; I know that the lord is coming through for me and you be blessed my brother and now that you see that its a need for your brothers it up to you to open a support group for yall. I don't believe that the lord take us through things for nothing he want you to show someone else how you made it through.

[Minister Charlie M. Carter, Jr.]

First, I would like to say I am praying with you, the family, and your child. It's difficult to give advice to a parent in the way I will at this time. But this advice is loving and practical. We all suffer and must suffer on this journey; even our children. How our children don't always reveal to us in clear words how we've presented life to them. Sometimes they act out their misunderstandings and interpretations of what they believe life is.

If we provided them a way to God, our children must suffer the "getting to know God" part of life for themselves. They must learn to take their burdens to the Lord and trust Him to give them rest. We cannot suffer that learning process for them, although we certainly feel for them. All growth is a learning process regardless your age.

For our children to understand and know the grace of God, they, just like us must die--or be broken--from the strongholds that prevent them from true love for themselves, family, and God. In all this, one must let go and let God. You love them but they must understand that there is a way that seem right...But one must go the right way. The right way is prayer, meditation, reading God's Word, and obedience. Wait on the Lord and be of courage. He will strengthen thine heart.

[Chinua]

Your so right; I remember her receive the gift of the holy ghost. I remember god saving her. I also remember thinking that the lord is raisin her up. I didn't want it. I was happy about her knowing the lord; and a bout know she knew who Jesus; however I don't want her to stand any trails. I know this is not possible; however its the way I feel.

[Exetta (Spiritual Sniper)]

Oh sis. I know how you feel. My son did the same thing and out of all my children he was the one always helping me loving me never ever talked back if I cry he cried, but one day after the Lord showed me his calling the enemy set after him. I love him and used to cry all the time but the Lord said let go. Finally I did but there was so much peace behind it that people where offended said I didnt love him, but you got to understand everybody will have their own testimony and your daughter will have hers and when she runs back to God you will see that her situation was only preparing her for her ministry. I call my son my prodical son. God said he had it in control and God don't lie. I said Lord my trust is in your hand your will be done but don't kill him.Shake him break him mold him and make him. She is going to be alright let God do it and trust that God is a Faithful he said our house would be saved but he never told us how they would get to that point. Love you and be encouraged. I will join in agreement with you every day as I go before the Lord for your daughter. LOVE SIS. EXETTA.

[Chinua]

Thank you so much the lord did give me the Prodigal son; however people don't understand that letting go and letting God takes strength too. Ex specially when it someone you've birth. I have been asking the Lord. How do I let go and day by day he has been confronting me. Thanks again for the word because they mean something to me.

[Sr. Pastor Antoine & Sr. Prophetess Sabrina Brown Sr.]

My husband and I are where you are right now! In the womb of pain for the one we love so dear! Me and my husband are pastors and our oldest son worked close with us in Ministry and we knew as being born again believers we all must carry our own cross! But never in our wildest night mare could anyone make us believe our son could say and do some of the things he has done to us. He backslide so he could get with this girl and when it was not what he thought it should be he left her and to make matters worse they have a little girl... We have done everything humanly possible to show him we love him and we will be here for him but when it gets to the point when your child feels they don't have to respect you any more, now that's more problems added to the already bad situation. So after our sons last blow up on us and one of his brothers we said enough is enough! We love him but we will not allow him to feel he has a right to say and do what he wants too. As much as it hurt me and his father we let him go! No parent ever wants to let go or disconnect from their child, but no where in the Bible does it say we have to be abused by our children. We know how you feel and our prayers are with you and I believe strongly that in God's timing He will restore! Continue to pray and rejoice for the victory because the Holy Ghost is going to birth us all through this womb!

[Chinua]

You so right with every thing in this is a dozie. This child has become someone I don't know. Please keep me lifted because the devil is fighting me in the mine. He wants me to hate and I refuse to do so. My daughter is doing something that I would never allow anyone to do to me and I just want to keep my heart and mind right.