Just a little something that is on my mind.
This is the day that the Lord has made, I am Blessed to be in the land of the living. I want to share something with you on the past week I was again in the hospital, it is the nature of the illness that I have been diagnosed with. There are times that I get completely frustrated I want to be in a different place I get tired of always feeling tired and not at my best. Having Lupus is hard and especially when it attacks in the way that it has on me lately. I am in constant pain, I am always tired, I take so many pills a day that it gets tiring. On top of that I am raising my two beautiful children, but the one thing that gives me peace is that I know that Jesus has it all in control. I trust Jesus and I know tha t it is He that keeps me . If it were not for Jesus I could not have made it through all that I have been through in this life. It was Jesus that kept me through all of the abuse that I suffered it was Jesus that helped me keep my mind when everything around me was going wrong. When the memories of sexual abuse came back and the nightmares and the feelings of worthlessness came washing over me it was Jesus who made the difference in my life it was Jesus who showed me tha He was there and Jesus who walked with me through it all. And when the doctors said I had lupus and only a few years to live it was Jesus who kept me. During the times I am sitting in the hospital, when my body is in pain and I am feeling down, when doctor after doctor is saying all the wrong tihings it is Jesus and my belief in Him that keeps me pressing my way. It is Jesus who assures me that He is walking with me and beside me. It is Jesus who lets me know that I will not die from a disease that has killed so many it is Jesus that lets me know that He will be with me through the pain it is Jesus who takes the pain from my body it is Jesus who helps me to rest. And It is Jesus who I will forever lean and depend on. Know that through all that you go through If you do not have Jesus you will not make it it is my belief in Jesus Christs as my only begotten savior and the knowledge that the Holy Ghost lives inside of me the evidence of which is speaking in tounges that I know that I can make it through anything. I love the Lord , He heard my cry and pittied my every groan as long as I live and troubles rise I will hasten to His throne.
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