Waiting for God to order my next steps

When I sing I often fall to sleep, I don't know what's make me sleepy but before I sing I don't feel it and then suddenly in the song I fall to sleep or am away with my brain. Lately have my brain switch off without me knowing why but I think it's all those messages I get from God and that I send out energy of healing around me where I go so I am drained out of energy sometimes.

In April 8, 2008 did I suddenly go into unconsciousness on my way to my bank and I was dead for a short time because suddenly did I find myself standing in deep dry well and on my left side was it a dark tunnel but before I entered the dark tunnel did a security guard in the bank shake me up and the ambulance had priority one on but at the hospital they couldn't tell why I was down in unconsciousness so against the law did they let me go home at 2 o'clock in the night.

It's when I go into almost unconsciousness God send me messages because in that situation am I in his hands and not in the world and I am total relaxed so I can recieve messages ( that's why the most messages comes in the night when we are most relaxed ).

I really need a man to take care of me so I can rest and share things in my brain with him so my brain isn't so full of spirit thoughts and he can preach about it to people.

I am not a preacher, I am a healer so the preaching do I gladly give to my man...no no I don't fight for my space in the pulpit, I am glad to sit behind on the altar. I want to work more behind the scene as a healer but ofcours I walk around and lay hand on people in the church and if lack of preachers I can do it because I am very flexibled.