What's Standing In The Way?

[Minister Benton]

Over the last couple of weeks I having been getting my house in order, but it is still not where I want it to be. I can’t complain to hard because everything that I needed in my life I have gotten it. There are a couple of more things that I need ASAP, but I working to get them. So, I pose the question, “What’s standing in the Way?”

I stood in church on Sunday as I taught Sunday school and this word travel across my lips. I know that I wrote a blog about fear earlier when I was trying to get back in to graduate school. It seems to crept back up. I have the fear to love again. I have to fear to be committed in a relationship again. I have the fear of what I truly don’t understand. I have the fear of trust. I have the fear of taking chances. I realized last night as I had a conversation with a friend. It’s funny to have a degree, a good job, and have things that you think that makes you happy. I recently bring buying this for the apartment and it really coming along, but is my house really home?


I am having a lot of thoughts running through my head. I am holding someone back to reach their happiness. What if I was back in Atlanta and in grad school how would things be? What if I was still doing the club scene and being like Usher, looking for love in the club? I am just in one of my moods that I want to do better and be better. I am at point in my life that I am almost ready to look in the mirror and truly seeing the man in the mirror.


I am not going to blame the world, the job, the church, the family, the friends, the fraternity, or the lifestyle for standing in my way. From this very moment a change has come. Its June 2, 2008, at 7:33 a.m. at Meharry Medical College, I, Arthur Pierce Benton Jr. is working harder, smarter, wiser, faster, and better to achieve all my goals.


So, What is standing in your way?