So why am I so excited today?!! I just got out of jail last night!! HOW FUN?!
I know many are looking at this blog (if you have not closed it already) like is she being crazy, sarcastic or even many of you will do deeper and think what I am about to post has something to do a spiritual bondage. Wrong again!
I was literally in jail last night!
So let me tell you the story. (Of course I think it's the most hilarious thing). So one morning I was due to be on duty as the Pastor's Assistant (it rotates every Sunday). Now this situation is quite different because Just weeks before I moved out of his house (long story)(AND NO THERE WAS NO TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP EXCEPT BEING MY FATHER!!)(HE IS MARRIED WITH KIDS AND HIM AND HIS WIFE WERE MY PARENTS FOR THE TIME BEING). So as a father , and a mother (wife), Expected me to be on time. I am normally a late person (CONFESS YO SINS) so 10-15 minutes late is on time for me. Pause: Let me clear the air! I know we all are stuck on this thing where how can you be late to church and not anywhere else. TRUTH IS: I am late to doctor appts, work (2 hours late once), school (I would get to school around 11 or 12 although school started at 8:25), I was even late going to get my driver's license. Just had to clear the air, but Time is not on my side.
So back to the story:
So yea, I was late for church although it was only ten minutes down the street. I didn't leave the house until 9:00 and church starts at 8:00. So usually when I am late I rush and I have a heavy foot, so I was speeding. I saw the police, I knew he got me so I pulled over before he got the chance to shine his lil lights. He came and told me I was doing 25 over speed limit. He gave me the ticket with a MUST APPEAR IN COURT at the bottom. I'm looking at it like MAYAANNN! So okay a month later I went to court, explained to the judge why I can't loose my license, and he didn't care. Of course he was just doing his job. So I was on a 6 months suspension. This is month 4 of my suspension. I felt as though if I drive, just to be careful. So of course I did, but needless to say, I was pulled over for an expired tag. My car wouldn't pass the emissions test so I can't get a tag.
Loosing my license, caused a lot to happen.
-I lost my job
- I lost my home
- I lost my church home (Although my season there was WAAYYY up!)
- I lost my girls (I am a mentor)
- I was not able to go to college (But this has more than one reason)
Okay so in the midst of going through this all, my father turns himself into jail. (He has always been the source of income for my entire family...cousins and all).
NEEDLESS TO SAY I GET MY DRIVING FROM HIM! (No I did not grow up in a "spiritual home" It was hell bound! lol But somehow I came out and surrendered my life to the father.)
So just before my mother was about to pitch in and help her accounts were frozen because of him being in jail. (Still married)
So she had to move back home with her mother and I moved in with two roommates. Why didn't I just move in with my mom? Well my grandfather smokes and I have asthma. When I am around it everything gets clogged up and I can't breathe. I can stand it for a minute, But the whole house smells like smoke so it all bothers me. So I moved over an hour and a half away, just to try to get to a bus line. (there were no buses where I lived). So that one speeding ticket altered my entire life. But I was some how more happy when I lost everything. (PICTURE THAT!)
Okay so with the economy being as jacked up as it is, no one was hiring at the time, but my old job was ready to take me back in a heartbeat. So I promised I would figure out a way to come back for the holidays and I did. I got my car and had someone else drive it. So I was able to go back to work.
Okay so now you got the background that leads up to this point. I was caught driving yesterday and I was out in hand-cuffs and taken away by the police officer. I felt like I murdered someone. So when I got to the jail, all of these men where banging on the window, because they have not seen a woman in months. I felt like a slice of pork bacon walking down that hall as the dogs where starving to get to me. So I got to my intake cell and heard the most horrible stories. Women in there from domestic violence. They fought back when the husband was beating them with hammers and causing all the teeth to fall out. Horrible both had kids. The other two in my cell were there for shoplifting, one with lighters (she claims by accident), and the other was just guilty by association. I mean they are in there crying and, what about my kids and, what's going to happen to me.... and so on. I smiled, and thought to myself if they knew what I knew.....My daddy is still on the throne. I was in there for 9 hours before I was able to post bail. I saw the officers taking these men away in chians wrapped around the waist and ankles. Just a horribles sight. I was going to get me something to eat right before I was pulled over. So it was like 11:00 pm now and I am starving forreal. They would not feed me. So I'm thinking all of this for one speeding ticket trying to make it church. Did you know people with DUI get off better than speeding? How screwed up is that. (I did my research).
So why am I so happy? Because I am under attack! Well how is that under attack if you were wrong Jasmine? Just wait and see....
You can choose to be mad, and depressed about a situation or you can choose to be happy, either way it happened.
I choose life and happiness! Something bout to break loose in my life. I am under attack one way or another.
DO YOU REALLY THINK THE ENEMY WANTS ME TO BE HAPPY?
DO YOU REALLY THINK HE IS ABOUT TO SIT BACK WITH HIS ARMS FOLDED AND LET ME WALK BY WITH ALL THIS ANOINTING?
HEAVEN NAWW! LOL
live, learn, laugh and WORSHIP!
(this blog was oringinally posted on myspace. The feedback has been phenominal...check out some of the comments)
Sonja- a spiritual life coach, writer and speaker responds:
First let me thank God!! Girl your are an extraordinary woman. 2 Kudos isn't enough for this. This is an awesome testimony. Satan is mad..hahahah devil you lose again. Now anyone who is a "saint" would have hid behind the mask, letting the enemy keep them in bondage in the form of guilt, shame, etc. But you put it out there. I enjoyed reading every moment of it, I felt like I was reading a novel, I could visualize it all. Thanks so much for sharing Mighty Warrior and yes God has some blessings coming your way.
And I responded :
LOL! Girl I ain't scared! I want people to see my stuggle on my way to the top. Save me some writing in all the books and movies to come....lol! When ain't nobody talking bad about ya, then you doing something wrong! On the serious note, I can't really explain why this whole thing is just hilarious to me. I take that back, yes I do. The devil thought he had me. I was 30 minutes away from going down in to the general jail population. They were about to hand me the blue suit with INMATE on the back! I got discouraged for all of 2 seconds, and told the devil (if I may be REAL just for a moment) YOU DON'T KNOW WHO THE HELL YOU MESSING WITH!!! That's what came out my mouth. I was pissed like it was some negro on the street messing with me! I had to just chuckle, cause all the people were just walking around like they own something. I just had this Paris Hilton look on my face....like yea my daddy owns all of this! LOL.
My generation today have just had it with all of these ppl that won't just be open and tell it like it is. What about the ones stuck in jail, the ones stuck in domestic violence, the ones that only know how to sell drugs to make end meet for mama---cause daddy walked out.....
PREACHER CAN YOU PREACH TO THAT!!!!!!!
Stop hiding behind all this religion!
Girl I'm on fire now, let me stop! Better yet, that's another BLOG!
Love ya! Thanks for reading! Stay Tuned! :0)
Angels of Praise Productions INC, Responded:
Jasmine, this is an awesome testimony; you should share this with every young person and anyone who wants to go to th pitted party. God will always test us and in form of another and its not about how we can over, its about what we learned when we come over and always remembering that He is our keeper. Continue to grow in Christ and allow Him to anoint you and use you as vessel.
This is why I am glad God connected us my sister! Ministry is everywhere! We have to use our mishaps and gladly make them become our outreach opportunities! A clear picture of what the enemy meant for bad God uses it for our good! In all things God still gets the glory!!!! My sister you are my young inspiration....thank you soooo much!!!
live, learn, laugh, and WORSHIP
Prophet Brian Lewis responded:
I write you prophetic and declare that this blog WILL change MANY lives. Amen sister God says to tell you to continue to pursue him. Love Ya Prophet Lewis
Dance Minister responded:
Jasmine....I am on a spiritual high....Reading this story, my God, Im here laughing but its just so funny how the enemy works on Gods Children. Satan really thinks that he can have us bound and get us to the point where we just forget who OUR Heavenly Father is. Like he must not know how poweful God is. Nevertheless, I thank God for you, your anointing, your life, your testimony, etc, because what you went through ( not the jail part) is kind of similar to my life story, a part of it, and for you to stay strong and keep praising and worshipping God, is awesome.
God bless you!
Gurl I feel ya'....You are right in position to recieve your miracle cause you got it now... what i mean by that u r now walking out the word as if u not only believe it 2 b true but you trust that it is....u r going thru these light afflictions as if u KNOW who ur daddy is... and thats what God wants from us is 2 trust him and 2 stop running from the devil & run 2 him & ask him "what's next cause that little test that u thought that u did..but my daddy only allowed...I made it thru- that & I aint scared of u cause i have read the end of the book and I know I win..so whats next???"and it's only when we can get 2 that point and laugh in the devils face thats when we get our diploma in that area cause we finally past the test...just get prepared 4 the next one and know that the same God who brought u outta that 1 is able 2 bring u outta whatever eles because it is only a test... and only a soveriegn God could allow it...so Go thru it like u know u got the victory God bless u woman of God and keep on doin' what u doin (except lightn up on the pedal..lol) God bless u and may he restore unto u EVERYTHING that the cankerworm & locust ate up & give it back 2 u pressed down shake 2gether & runnin over!!!!
Prophetess Judi responded:
I read your blog - when your under attack is only because the enemy is using anything and everything to reroute you. The the Lord has Blessed you above and beyond many - your gifts come out under an attack. Now, I want you to know something - I prayed for you - I rebuke all that comes towards my sister oh God, I rebuke negative things that come toward her. Oh God, We send all that come toward her back 100 fold - We give her to you oh God. May the Blood of Jesus Cover her no matter what situtation she may be in. In the Name of Jesus. AMEN.
My sister - God is just getting you ready for what is to come. Prophet in Training for a much bigger assignment for God's Kingdom. AMEN!
Love in Him,
My dear friends, you can say what you want about it! I still choose life!