I have been under attack and I have shot myself in the foot through my life and the worst place to be is in neutral. I am having a hard time because there is something I must do, but my flesh tells me to run from it or ignore it. But I can't it is time for me step up to the plate. I have been in ministry for a few years and recently moved to Corning, after living in New York City and Washington D.C. This small town in up-state New York, has brought me a great measure of Peace.
But now its time to get back to work. I am license and ordained minister, but my pastor wants to ordain me, which is fine with me. I have to make confession before the church, but I have put it off. First I waited until I learned more about the saints and the pastor, next it was the play that was in production and after 3 months of rehearsals, we had the debut of "The Sower and The Seed" it was a fantastic hit, God was truly glorified.
Now everything is clear and the time is now, but just like I been doing since I was 18 years old, when I did a sermon for a youth ministry, I have been running. I am being honest here people as honest as I possibly can be. I have been gifted, called and charged, but I want to run. I don't know if anyone else have had this feeling and if you don't mind, I can use some insight here. I see a big door and when I walk through it I know everything will change, I know that "God doesn't me a spirit of fear but of power love and sound mind." The more I write the better I feel, so I ask for your prayers and I am stepping through that door and leave self behind and do what I have been called to do. Thanks for allowing me to use this as a sounding board, stay blessed beloveds. Min.Ron