There is a comment we use in Christiandom which tends to really be abrasive as you are going through. Personally, I am in spiritual transition. Nothing in my life is familiar and there is absolutely no point of reference to where God has me. The foundation of my faith is secure in that God is faithful, He loves me, and He will take care of me. In that there are good days and bad days and when I have bad days I tend to seclude because people tend to say the most foolish things. The last thing I want or need to hear is that "God is testing me." God knows me and his word says that He would not give us more than we can bare. If I am discouraged to imply that God gets some glory out of me being discouraged is outlandish. Now don't get me wrong, I know there are some super spiritual folks that there is some theological base on which they would like to represent this but I will rest on Job was not tested by God - Satan tested him. God continued to sustain Job during the trial and Job held on because at the end of the day when all else is gone - I need to count on the loving kindness of my God and his care, concern and provision for me.