SADNESS;Hold on to your joyful thoughts and moments! God is still on the throne and he haven't forgot that you are here! Turn your life toward him, accept him and put your life in his hands! We all go through these hardships so know that you are not alone! The Church is filled with people who can relate to your situation. It is a good place to be when the devil is trying to attack your spirit! Hang on to him and remember the foot prints in the sand are not your own.