Here I am, thinking about life. And it is so amazing when we look at things spiritually. All that know me, know I try to live a transparent life...this is online as well as off line. I tend to share details only because we all have "details" in our lives, and I am not at all ashamed of my life nor the choices I have made in life. If I have made wrong decisions, I share them...to help the next person along : ) Many tell me I should not do this, but I tend to do what I want : ) and sharing my life is something I do, because it's where we learn the most lessons.
With that being said, my question to you is, is there anything in your life, God is trying to remove, but you are fighting tooth and nail to hold on to? Well, I have been fighting with the Lord's will for a few years now, and it's all over a car! Yes, a car! Not a man, but a car! When I first purchased my car, I loved it. I am a "natures" girl, so I truly loved my convertable. But, over the last few years, with my career being effected by the economy, I have been struggling to make my car payments. Now, with in the last few months, I have started the process to start two businesses, one is For-Profit, the other Non-Profit...but because of this "Car", I have had "NO PROFIT" to put into starting the businesses. And the one thing holding me back, has been my car. During the time I have been working on my business plans, the Holy Spirit has been whispering in my ear to give my car back. But of course, me being me...I kept saying "Huh????" and kept it moving. And as I said, I have been struggling with this for a few months now. Well...the Lord has finally had HIS way with me. I have surrendered the car. But the funny thing is, once I decided in my mind to be obedient, it was as if the entire path was paved for me to do everything I had to do. And it's as if a burden has been lifted, and I am moving full speed ahead, in the direction I was directed to go in. And as I made this decision, the Lord, whispering to my spirit, has been saying..."I know the plans I have for you. They are not plans to hurt you, but to prosper you." And I am sitting here smiliong. I am smiling first because I have really been behaving as a stubborn child of the Kingdom, kicking and screaming at my Fathers command. But HE, with Love, Grace and Mercy, just held me by the hand and helped me release this "car". I know this sounds crazy, but it showed me...what are we often holding on to, because we don't understand something, that God is trying to remove from our lives to grow us? Yes, a voluntary Repo does not sound like anything any one would advise me to do. But when you are being instructed by the One that controls EVERYTHING...is it really all that crazy? Well of course I will keep everyone updated on what happens...<smh> I love being a child of God.
Thank you Jesus for teaching me obedience, even when it makes NO earthly since!