I BELIEVE

[Soul2verse]

Good Brother and Beloved Sons,

I beleive that God was trying to get my attention however I was so unfocused and had strayed off course mentally and spiritually. I know who he said that I am and I was not living to the fullest of my potential in God. I was living in the shadow of fear and death thikning that I was a total failure doomed for the great abyss of nothingness.

When I was a kid they said that I talked to much. They said I read to much. They said that my intelligence and creativity was an oddity. They said that my head was to big and my body was too small. When I played tournament ball in my youth they would call me little man and say that I looked like a starving African. I would get so mad that I would explode down the court running my opponents over and starting fights and many times coming home bruised and scarred.

I did not take the time to realize that I would make most of the points and assists on my team on a consistent basis. But one day my brother filmed one of our games with his camcorder and for the first time I saw what I looked like to many of the people. According to the film I was small in stature as compared to my team mates and opponents. The most revealing and amazing thing that I saw about myself in the film was that I sliced through my opponents with grace and ease to score. I could use left or right hand to score at will. I saw the intensity and determination of my opponents to stop me and shut me down. From that moment on I did not doubt who I was in the game. So, when they screamed get little man I said "come and get this".

In the last few years I have strayed off course and not lived up to my potential. I got a letter in the mail a few days ago stating that they found some abnormal results in my test that I had taken on a physical at the doctor a few weeks ago. I have been bombarded with a life of trials, tribulations, pain, sorrow, regrets and mistakes. Nevertheless I turn right back around to my God today and remember that He has taken me through the most difficult times. I realize that I am continually covered in His Blood and by His Grace and Mercy. I know who I am and Whose I am. I am a child of the King, a Good Soldier of Jesus Christ, I am a warrior of righteousness, a Minister of the Good News and a Man who is fearfully and wonderfully made. So, once again I say to the enemy of my soul, "come get this" for if God is for me then who can be against me...no weapon that is formed against me shall prosper...not one.

Sure weapons will be formed agaisnt me but I never forget that it is God who goes before me. So today as I go to the doctor to folow up I already know that it's already allright. Do you know what I mean when I say that, "IT'S ALREADY ALLRIGHT! I prayed about it got up off my knees and now I go about my Father's business.

I love you, please stay strong. May the love and compassion of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ continue to surround you and all those that you love....One LOVE