My way of thorns a way God does to prepare us for our mission

[Eva]

My way of thorns a way God does to prepare us for our mission

Yes, it what it is.

The best preachings I have heard have coming from those who God have made go down to the bottom and when they haven't find a way out, it is when they turn to God and sometimes an angel have standing in front of them.

I have heard a preacher speaking in a huge church how he slept in his car and did drugs and was so down a person could be.
I have heard about the big Bishop who was a gang leader in New York that was shooten and was on his way to die in a dark dead end way and an angel come and gave him so much power so he could take himself out to the light where people find him.

My story is also a hit the bottom story but it was that I had been a slave under other peoples need and abuse so I wanted to do a suicide because I was so mental tired....but God come down and talked to me and made me take an airplane to USA leaving an mental abusing husband behind.

I have been most everything a person can be in. People call me wise but it's God that have let me pick up almost everything in life.

My father was an alcoholicer and pedophile and my mother took those medicine that make you go crazy and she also abused me.

I had an older adopted sister and a blood brother and they killed me once and tried to kill me many times...the most backflash and forbia I have is when my brother use to put a pillow over my face when I was sleeping and hold it down until I was unconsciousness.
( I can't have anything covering my face, not even half of it )

I know some of those suddenly death of babies are a older kid cover the baby face but no one suspicion a child doing such things.

Since I had a disfunctional family I attracted abusive men to come into my life because I had been raised to think that I had no value in myself and no interegity.

My men was always nice when people was around but a devil behind close doors and as they never beat me up but mental put me down, couldn't I show any scars, the scars was inside me.

I was threaten to deat with knifes and gun but they never gave me a black mark.

Then in USA did I live with a deacon and was involved in his church that show up to be a group of addicted people wanting money in Jesus name.

They got much money from the cityhall becuse the Pastor was wellspoken and handsome.

People trick me only once and I have learned for the rest of my life when it's not about relationship.

I was working nights and my deacon wasn't working as he got money from his church.

In the night did I come and see later was our home a place for drugparties but my homeless friends told me what was going on in my home and one day my eyes was open and I kicked the deacon out from my life.

I suppose the Pastor moved to another place and started a church there because we come to find out that the woman he lived with and had kids with wasn't his wife, that he had abbonded his wife in New York and two small boys....I maybe meet him again when he is preaching in a huge church and being loved of people not knowing who he is and his true nature.

I was with one more false preacher. He was well educated Pastor but he was addicted to sex and on one of our first meeting I helped him to put together a altar for the next day preaching and when we was done he asked me to have sex on the altar.

He is preaching in many churches around Virginia Beach area.

My two kids are disabled and I have lost many babies in miscarring and one baby killed they in the hospital by not treat me and my pregnancy right and for that I carry a sadness because of the child they took from me.

Don't tell me I haven't been into.....

I don't regrets any day of my past because I know it was God's way to educate me to help people in the same situatuation I have been in and the experiences I have of life.

At 56 am I ready to help people because I am complete now in my education for God's work, my spirit is very high.

I have no money but God doesn't care about money because what God want is that we here on earth should help each other for the money we get.

All money is God's money..it's not yours to keep or build fancy houses for or buy a new car. You can live a life in luxory of the money you was stolen from God buy not make the money work for all people and not only for you and your family....

God doesn't maybe not saying it to you just now but you can't buy life with money, one day you will die and stand face to face with God and He will ask you what you did with the money he gave you to share wisely.

I am waiting for people to share money so I can built the temple God have told me I should do,
He even said it's name on HIS temple.

But He haven't told me where to built it but " wherever I lay my hat, that's my home " as the song title are....

My daugther are only disabled in her body and am a blessing for me as a worker for God
but
my son is disabled in his brain and will never be ok and belong to the devil.

That's also a way for God to tell me and the world something.

As a healer I avoid mental sickness but I tell people I can comfort people around the mental sick person.

Jesus was speaking with WORDS to mental ill only and I have not any mental power to could tell the mental sickness to go and put itself on swine.

I can only heal body sickness and animals.