UNMASKING THE PAIN

[Elaine Henderson]

I invite you to come with me and go back, back, back in the past, revealing the works of things that didn't last.

For me the year 1969

The essence of the anointing perfumes the place with a sweet fragrance, pleasant and inviting. piano playing, drums beating, tambourines shaking, hands clapping, feet stumping. filled with singing, shouting and crying words of thank you flowing everywhere. Surely the presence of God is here, then out the mouth of a man dress in a black robe proclaiming God so loved the world, he gave his only begotten son. that whosoever believeth in him shall not die, but have everlasting life. and you must be born again.then called people to be baptize.
So here I am with no clue as of what to do, because of what's seen in between. These people that I know talk and sang about the storm and the rain then when home to pain.still say heaven's sweet, then get beat.
Lord help me see, I don't understand all of this to love a man?
Imagination gone wild, for here I am, I am a child in a confused state of love and hate.

Now lets go forward, forward in time out of the year 1969. To the year I thought was mine because of a boy who made my light shine.
He became my everything, so it seemed cause all I do is dream. He's my world, no more being just a church girl.
Disobedient,rebellious and even resentful, self respect went out the window, life right now is grand it's all about my man, can't they understand.
Why do I have to fuss and fight, I know what's wrong, I know what's right, but I'm on a flight, floating on cloud nine. in a fairytale fantasy that ever girl dream.
Married and having a family with all the trimmings, you know the house with the white picket fence, big back yard where the kids run and play.even a family dog.
Your palace, where he's king, your queen. the long talks at night, dinner by candle light. then making love all night. got to admit your all wrap up and love struck.

Hope someone can identify, we all got caught in that lie.

You soon find out life not so sweet, when the one you love lie and cheat. Then beat you for his deceit.
you feel betrayed and deceived, used then abuse, your distraught. you wish you could start over again, cause now you realize you can't win.
Full of hurt, pain and shame, again you don't understand all of this to love a man ?
Another state of love and hate.

Here we are in the present, we view the storm, with thunders of hate, tears of pain that pour like rain.
Lightning illuminate the past. Now we face the task of removing the mask.

To release this taunting disguise, I lift my head to the sky. For how do you heal when your whole world is ill.
Some find the solution in other relationships where we don't get to deeply involved, some become workaholic, alcoholic or drug addicted. Depressed and self blaming and violent. some have taken their lives
other entertain the thought. I ask myself have you forgot what was taught ?

That took hold of me, with tears in my eyes I went to the place I hide. cried out to the lord, I don't understand all of this to love a man ?

Then he asked : " Do you love me "
It's not about what you see, it's about you and me....

Then answered : " YES "
All of this to love a man, for here I stand with outstretched hands

[Elaine Henderson]

Thank you Mr. R. Henry for your comment and taking the time to read my work. also Be Blessed

[R. Henry]

Beautiful!!! Be Blessed............