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God knows I am trying my very best and he can see that I am living by his Word, and I know for some reason that the devil is trying to destroy me so therefore I pray more and more and more trying to stay grounded in God, but this year alone Ive had to bear so much pain and trials and tribulation than I ever had to face. It seems like before I can get through one thing I am being hit with another thing before I can even catch my breath. Im not talking about no little stuff Im talking about some life changing issues. And just last night I was hit again. You see the devil had me just a couple months ago to the point i couldn't even pray, cry, or read a scripture. I was just numb. The devil tried to use me but he couldnt shake me so he had to set a trap for me to fall in by placing some stumbling blocks in my path and I did fall. I knew I wasn't strong enough to fight the devil by myself so I called on a warrior of God, and as my pastor began to pray for me I could feel the grasp of the devil letting me go. As he was praying I began to feel the pain, I began to cry and I began to pray. But the devil is trying everything and using everyone trying to destroy me but WHY? I feel like Im struggling trying to stay saved. Im tired of hurting, im tired of the pain, Im tired of going to bed and waking up with tears in my eyes, so what do you do when christians and love ones continue to stab you in your back. SO WHAT DO YOU DO?