Starting Over

While separated from my husband before my divorce, it was a struggle. The bible said one thing and my heart was saying another. Struggling many years with that on my plate my marriage ended in divorce after ten years. That wasn't the devastating part. The part that scared me the most was starting over. WIth the fear of starting over the concept was starting over with another man. After being divorced for two years and separated from my ex-husband three years prior. Starting over with someone else wasn't a forseeable option. With much fasting and prayer the Spirit of the Lord began to weed people and things out of my life. And the thing I learned was that starting over is never easy. No matter where you have been and/are going, it is never easy having done something for so long and walk away from it. Even if you try to return to the situation with a different mindset, it does not guarantee us safe passage to the place of restoration nor does it allow us the space to pick up where we left off. My marriage had gone bad no matter how I tried to salvage it or make things right. The wounds were too fresh to start all over and when we parted ways for the final time, I soon realized that I needed to start all over with the Lord, before I could start over with anyone else.
After a sufficient amount of time the wounds began to heal, and I had enough strength to return to the scene to do nothing other than make amends for the wrong that had been done. Amends were made for the sake of a friendship, and my own peace of mind. But, no matter how hard I tried it was very awkard at first, because there were a lot of unresolved issues that we had not been properly dealt with. Issues are the painful areas (sore spots) in our lives that no one really wants to address and/or take responsibility for. When we have not allowed God the opportunity to deal with the issues of trust, all of our efforts of reconciliation are in vain. I really wasn't sure I was okay with being rejected, nor was I sure my ex was ready to move forward just yet. But nevertheless for the sake of my own Christian walk I was ready to make amends that I might be able to move forward with my life.
As I sought the Lord concerning our possible reconciliation, the Lord revealed the broken areas in my life concerning my relationship with Him and with my ex. I had to come to terms with my part in the matter, repent for holding on to the pain and bitterness, and ask the Lord to restore unto me the joy of His salvation. It is only at this place of repentance and forgiveness that I began to feel alive again. It is here where God began to bring me full restoration. The very wholeness that would enable me to walk victoriously in that blessed state of peace. His peace that passeth all understanding. I now walk in that peace, and I'n eternally grateful. My prayer is that others can walk in that peace as well. The peace of God that keeps our hearts and minds stayed on Him. God knows we certainly deserve it.
You can start over no matter where you are or how far you have fallen. You can do all things through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
IN HIS HOLY PRESENCE!!!

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Comment by Pastor Londen Winters on July 31, 2009 at 8:08pm: Hello Apostle K. Franklin!

How are you my sister in Christ? I pray that all is going well with and for you. I just read you testimony and it
really touched my heart. I'm so glad that God has restored you and that you can continue to do His will. I'm sure that your testimony has been a blessing to many others who are going through and praying for a healing.

Lets keep each other lifted in prayer. Because we both know that our assignment isn't as easy as it appears.
Smile!

God bless you,
Your sister in Christ,
Apostel Londen Winters

Comment by Tracy Lawanda on July 20, 2009 at 11:36pm: Greetings Woman of Yah, I pray that you are having a wonderful day in Yahweh. Thanks for letting us into your world. "We overcome by our testimonies" Glory to Yah! Continue... to stand, press, and push... until the coming of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Shalom, Tracy Lawanda My Motto: "A new morning is a new beginning to get it RIGHT!"

Comment by Kishi Franklin on April 21, 2009 at 12:05pm: Thank you. Looking forward to great fellowsip.

Comment by Kishi Franklin on April 21, 2009 at 7:57am: Good morning Gloria

Yes, it was so good to hear from you, our prayer is that all is WELL. Thank you for the comment on our blog.
Broken relationships are terrible and sometimes bad, but His divine healing is bitter sweet. Being restored to wholeness is something God desires for all of His children, even though we must suffer some pain and distress along the way. HE IS GOOD!!! Better than any campbell soup itself. HIS LOVE FOR US IS SO DEEP AND WIDE that we can never fathom the depth or width of His love. Always remember that there is nothing impossible with God, and there is nothing too hard for Him to handle. It is in His hands that we are and holding on to HIM, and with an outstretched arm that He has saved us. Nevertheless, be encouraged my friend and sister in the Lord, He is faithful to perform HIs promises . Be steadfast immoveable, God is standing right there.
Be blessed and we love you in Jesus' name.

IN HIS HOLY PRESENCE!!!

Comment by Gloria Robinson on April 20, 2009 at 9:59pm: Thank you for sharing your story. Broken relationships are terrible bad for the heart. However, after the pain we realize just how much we need the Lord. Now, I am trying to seek him before,during and after the pain. The hardest thing for me to do is have trust in a man even after seeking the Lord. Continue to be blessed and remain steadfast in your healing process.